KYLIEE<3

Happy Birthday!

Monday, May 31, 2010

YAY! Its my birthday today:DD

i want to thank people who smsed me yesterday night, close to 12 am and over.

Vanessa

Erika

Rayna

Ivan

Belle

Nicole

Veniece

and today:

Sinyee

Xiner

Peien

Sensen

Tessa

Rachel sis

Yiru

:D:D am very very very happy now, cos i see all those msgs and fb msgs too((:

Cheerios

Kylie

PS.OH, angie and erika. ILYSM! thanks for the cross necklace:D

S9FTW Kylie

Saturday, May 29, 2010

I hate it how they always make me feel so small when being compared to him.I hate it when they make it seem that I am lousier than him.I hate it when they say he deserves better stuff than I do.I hate it how they make me feel this way.
copied from jiayun's blog. sorry jie. i'll credit eu for it

and you say, u treat me as a bff. but why does other ppl tel me otherwise. i was a fool to really believe in you. i am a fool. idk who to trust anymore.
why is my life so damn fucking screwed?

S9FTW Kylie

Happy Birthday to me in advance

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I. WANT. TO. CRY. SCREAM. JUMP DOWN BUILIDING. GAG THEIR MOUTHS WITH TAPE. TIE THEM TO A BED.
I WANT TO BE ALONE, AND THEY ARE NOT LETTING ME HAVE THAT.
WHY?
I ALSO DK.
DON'T THEY KNOW? CAN'T THEY SEE IM ALREADY UPSET ENOUGH?
STILL WANT PROBE HERE PROBE THERE. ASK SO MANY CRAP QUESTIONS, CANNOT SEE I ALMOST CRYING ALR. STILL WANT SCOLD SOMEMORE. FML[sorry veniece :P]
what they want sia. i really dk. firstly, my bro go camp, so they turn ALL their attention on me. wth. then right, my mother. whole morning nagnagnag. ask me do hol work NOW.
I mean, come on, NO ONE does their hol work when hol havent even start right? well, at least this is what i think.. anyway to cut long story short.
I HATE THEM NOW, currently
They demoralised me. I HATE IT WHEN PPL DO THAT, its like they dont care abt ur feelings AT ALL. heartless. my father too.
" I want you to tell me when u are going to start ur work by end of today. DO YOU HEAR ME!!??" and ofc, i didnt reply, whick was a badddd move. WTF IS WRONG WITH THEM!!!!!????
i mean. why do they keep critisicing everything im doing? everything i do. to them, its WRONG. im just so tired, so tired. i dont care what they scold me. irresponsible, naive, lazy, blur, whatever. i really am very tired to care. and i thought my mom loved me. sure, she does. but cant she think what effects her words will have on me? I don't deny. im a sensitive person. i cry easily. i cried when i read joy's letter and when i read touching and saddening pparts of a story.
someone tell me why my life sucks so bad.
so bad
that i want to crawl under the blanket and cry my eyes out
cry till no more tears are left
do they love me?
treating me like this?
even so, do they have to trea everything i do as wrong?
so jojo tell me why...
XOXO
Kylie

S9FTW Kylie

every minute of the day filled with laughter

Thursday, May 27, 2010

HALLO!!:D

IM HYPER NOWWW.

WHY?

Cos, siewying, gillian, belle and xiner came to my house for 5 plus hours worr(: envious much? We ate junk, cake, played with poker cards, played music, laughed till we cried, played wii and talked(: IM happy. finally, i feel as if i belong in f2-3. i hope this cont. when school reopens!

Right first, parent meet teacher. my rank is 16/40:D im not boasting thou, i just feel that i improved. but obviously not to my parentsD: they thought i didnt do very well overall and that my maths sucked! great, now ANOTHER private tutor for maths. But seriosuly, the subject that mede me the most upset was LITERATURE. I'll tell you something very ironic and stupid. Last time, since i learnt abt books, i started reading them everyday, I learnt about Authors, i set my mind to be one when i grew up. I found out abt literature, i thought i could do that sub very well since i read alot in pri school. now come sec 2, i realise i CANT DO LITERATURE at all. Why? I question myself alot of times. Im so passionate abt writing and yet i cant do literature. you know whats my grade for lit? a pathetic C5. i could cry y'know. I've never wanted to do so well for a subject before. I did what everyone did. read the whole book like a 1000 times, memorised facts and thoughts. blahblahblah. intheend, also no use. now im thinking of giving up on taking core lit next year. I keep on thinking, maybe i wasnt meant to persue a writing career, maybe i wasnt meant to do literature. but i don;t understand why?? So jojo please tell me why. nice. random or what, but i'm absolutely in love with Shinee's JOJO((: smiley face and thumbs up!

AHAHAH, moving on. today after parent meet cher. was a GREAT day. Me and xiner waited at the canteen for siewying, belle and gillian to finish theirs and when we were all there, we proceeded to the mrt, took to paya lebar and took 155 to my house. Belle was really amazed by my house, esp. the kitchen((: i wonder why? Its country style, so there's no link to her, as in my thinking :p hahah. then, we onned the AC in my room and downstairs, the whole house was practically cool(: and if u know the weather today, it was very nice, very very nice. NOT. hahah. yeah, so we basically nua-ed in my room the majority of the time. And gillian, xiner and siewying was watching suju intimate note. which i plan on watchin soon(: and siewying's laughter is like super uber epically CONTAGIOUS. I;ve never laughe so hard in my life(; THANKS FOR A GREAT TIME FRIENDS((: ok, we had cake and then uhm. BELLE. She smashed cake on my face! i was totally caught by surprise! COs i didnt know she would actually mean to do it. i thought she was joing! AHAHAH.im still laughing over my expression.. i was like oh, i dare you, after all, i've never been cake-smashed before. then WHAM. i was like OMWTF. AHHAHAH(: but i still love you(: (Y)

then, we went to play wii. play the raving rabbids and then siewying like the swing the cow game alot. i swear she laughs like a maniac:D HAHAHAH. therefore, it was a day full of laughter and fun! I really want Belle to come sleepover during june and to go out with her(; OH YESH!

AHAHHA!!^^

TO BELLE/XINER/GILLIAN:

You gals owe me a present each(; only siewying gave me(: AHAH, she so guai.[di 1 sheng], unlike you'll. lol. jkjk. i just want a card(; i like cards, they are precious to meeeee:D:D:D

HAHAH. just came back form ah ma house. durian FTWW. OMO. the durians my uncle bought were DAMN delicious! sweet and bitter((: YUMMY! and my uncle said that the durians were my bday present. i was like -.- then he say. REALLY. then i was like. cannot! i want other things! dont want food. LOL.

OMGOMGOMGOMGOSH>>> I LOVE JOJO!!! the song from shinee:D that song is like stuck in my head.. i think im crushing over jongie(L) he's super uber HOT TTM:D

ok, gtg nowww and watch intimate note(Y)

XOXO

KYLIEEE

S9FTW Kylie

JUNE HOLS:DDDD

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

HARLOWWS:D
heyss(: JUNE HOLS ARE COMING(: AND IT WAS THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOL TODAYYY!!(: but, it didnt feel like it. idk whyy. sorry for ignoring you gals on my blog. and for not updating. am gonna updat noww(: it'll be a long one cos i have alot of things to S.P.E.W
firstly, im not going to say who, but WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS? I'm scared to trust you again after what you did to me last time. I don't know if anything you do is real or fake? Are your actions fake? Are your concerns pretend? What good do you gain from doing this? Can i ask you. I don't know why, but it seems like you want me out. Well, cos everytime i talk to A, you get jealous and always say no offence but, everyone's really irritated with you for cutting in their conversations. LET ME TELL YOU BITCH, I WAS NOT CUTTING IN I WAS PLAINLY TALKING TO A FIRST. WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?? I'M SORRY BUT I DON'T UNDERSTAND. DO YOU THINK IM STEALING HER AWAY FROM YOU? WHY EVERYTIME YOU WILL MAKE ME FEEL SO BAD ANND THINK THAT PEOPLE REALLY FIND ME IRRITATING. WHY. I CLEARED THE QUESTION UP. THEY DIDNT think that. SO STFU. WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME FEEL SO BAD OF MYSELF/WHAT IS IT THAT YOU WANT BITCH? MAYBE IM WRONG, MAYBE U REALLY TREAT ME AS A BFF. BUT I AM AWARE. I DO NOT WANT TO BE MADE INTO A FOOL LIKE YOU DID TO ME LAST TIME. DO YOU PURPOSELY TRY TO ALWAYS COME TO MY HOUSE TO FIND MY WEAKNESSES AND WHEN THE TIME COMES, YOU WILL TURN EVERYONE AGAINST ME. LEAVING ME HURT? ONCE BITTEN TWICE SHY, IM NOT GONNA LET YOU HURT ME AGAIN. U'RE ONLY GONNA KILL ME ONCE. WHICH IS O.V.E.R. SO STFU. I REGRET LETTING YOU GETTING SO CLOSE, SO CLOSE THAT I WAS ONLY 0.5% AWAY FROM TRUSTING YOU. I REGRET. FROM NOW ON, IM GONNA STAY ALERT, IM NOT GONNA TRUST YOU THAT EASILY AGAIN. NO MATTER HOW PLEADING YOU ARE. NO WAY. GET OUT OF MY LIFE IF YOU HATE ME BITCH.

Ahhh. that feels so good. ranting and spewing out all my anger. really. i cant stand your fake actions anymore. ANYMORE YOU UNDERSTAND?

OK, next church and daddy. i sometimes wonder if i didn't have po, and my whole family was Christians, how wonderful my life would be. i could go for any Church events, conferences, camps. all that. and even stay late for main services. but i know this was not meant to be my fate. instead, i got to fight my po and overcome all sorts of obstacles. Anyone afraid of asking their parents for permission to go out/etc.. pls buzz me at 83393210. im in the same boat as you ya. seriously, everytime i have to ask permission from my daddy, i will be very afraid of asking and more afraid for the answer. really. its kinda like a phobia. huh. funny but serious and sad case from me. Do you know how much C.O.U.R.A.G.E it took for me to ask my daddy for permission to go for REDRAIN. and yes, it was awesome(; but, i still am NOt confident of asking for permission. WHAT IS THIS? WHY DO I HAVE THIS PHOBIA?? haiz.. msning with ENLE felt so goood. i've never typed so fast in my life (: and girl, it;ll always remain a secret okay? Our LIPS are SEALED:D mwah, ily! haizzzz you know there are so many upcoming evennts in church ad i want to go for them all but i know myself i cant. see how many,
:D ASIA CONF this FRI and SUN
:D STEVE MUNSEY THIS SAT 5-7
:D VBS-june hols
:D zone camps-june hols

TELL ME, oottokay? [what to do in korean.] what do i do??? seriously, idk. haizzzzzzz.
sorry readers for boring you with things u may not know or understand stuff.. really sorry

but on a brighter note, june hols are coming and my bday's 5 days away! WHOOOHOOOO. here are some of the events im looking forward to!
:D tmr gathering/bday celebration @ my house with gm ppl
:D fri-cousin and family celebrating
:D outing with aunt and kathy for manipedi and shopping!
:D ANGIEEE SHOPPING SPREEEEE!

omg. lovesloves. hahaha(: \

THIS PART IS TO NICOLESEE> if she reads(:
Hey babe(: i know you're emo recently and your life's not going the right way. but stand strong, be strong, i will always be here for you(: Although idk what happened to cos you to be so emo, i just want you to know, i'll alw be here for you(:since we met each other when we were 1(: ily. cheerup and wipe away those tears. always here, and sms away:D Always remember, God is looking after you, He hears your every cry and every whisper:D

ok gtg. seeeya babes(:

XOXO
Kylie

S9FTW Kylie

EXAMS ARE OVERR:D

Friday, May 14, 2010

HEYHEY(: i know i suppose to post this like last friday?? HAHAHH. FB made me busy. scold her/him/it instead:D OMGOSH!
MY HAIR IS LIKE FREAKING S T R A I G H T. YEAHHHH!!!!
hahahahah(: I LOVE IT SO MUCHMUCHMUCH! but no, not rebond. HOT IRON:D LOVELOVE;D NOT GONNA REBOND, spoils my hair(; hot ironing is A W E S O M E:D IM starting to get hyper. YEAHHHH!!! tomorrow, going orchard with sasha and tongs:D AWESOME:D and one more anouncement:

PEOPLE WHO WANNA GET RED IN THE RAIN! PLS CONTACT ME @ 83393210 or facebook me :D ITS GONNA BE REALLY SUPERR AWESOME:D ITS REDRAIN!!! THE WORLD'S BEST CONCERT:D

ohhyeah. my favourite month, cos its my BIRTHDAY MONTH(: presents lailailai:D i want webcam, headphones(:, SOSHI posterr!, IPHONE, UNLIMITED SMS<3>

buahahahah. if anyone of you is wondering why i not posting abt exams, its bcos i don't feel llke rewinding back to the torture period. HAHAHH! deal WITH it:D
you know right, someone told me that if u feel ur results meet ur expectations and u r happy with it can alr, but parents just DONT understand us right? TAG BACK YO PEEPS:D tmr no sch LOVES:D
XOXO
KylieXD

S9FTW Kylie