Yallo, today i cry from morning until now. Everytime anyone says something sad i cry. I dunno why lehs...very moody... Today i told my mom about the piano theory thing and abtmy piano teacher. She wanted to call her but i say no. Make me so em later. HAIZ...then around 11 plus, shecame into my room and said, kylie, do it for mummy please, i have never ask you to do anything. I think it will be great for ur future etcetc...  then, i dunno somehow, the tears just stream down my face and i just got to agree if not i will b breaking her heart uhh...i feel so sad now. Why she must resort to being so close to me then ask me...SHIT i crying again. Stupid tears.I better avoid nicole's blog for awhile. Later make me cry even more.... I really feel very sad now..some1 can send me a cheering up sms? I dunno why she want me to pass in everything. I asked her if i fail, will she scold me? She said. You cannot fail. I feel so sad.......but she said she will not scold me...When i dint say anything, she promised to go out with me shopping and promised to buy me this and that. I felt so sad so sad. Why cant she understand that i just cannot pass, in the end she say like that, make me abit more optimistic, but i still am crying as i know i will let her down when the day comes. stupid tears. I hate myself.....   sorry mum, i know i am being very selfish but i really cannot do it. Even if u promise me alo of things,i know i cannot make it. Im sorry, really sorry... IM crying ow, cant post anymore, if now, i will sure sob..goodbye. BTW, she said to buy me beach road prawn mee. then bcuz too busy, she dint buy. Im not eating my father bought the chicken or char siew rice. I HATE MY FATHER. HE DOESNT UNDERSTAND ME AT ALL... ok, i really cannot post. The keyboard is wet., IHATE MYSELF. I HATE BEING SO FAKE TO MY MOM> SHE"S THE WORLD"S BEST MOM ANYNE COULD HAVE.
IHATEMYSELF
Kylie